feeling: happy, sad, shag and stoning

alrite! i realise something. i can be freaking blur in the morning. its like totally blur.

rockmaster qualifying round is over. but wats over is only the beginning..
novie, got into the semi-finals!i was crossing my finger all the time! freaking nervous.
winson keep advising me to reset my mind and learn from my mistakes.
and the finale round gonna be next week at clark quay. to think of it! omg! i never know i could compete again to a newer ground

soo the next day i was competting for the intermediate catogary. my first time competing in this catogary. a higher level. i went there with no expectation and goals. but to juz see how intermediate level is like and getting the feel for the next intermediate competition tat il be competting in two weeks time, pumpfest!
wel, shockingly i expected to get the first from the last position. haha congrats congrats, 16th pplace, issent that bad, for a start! haha. pummpit at pumpfest.


the papers are getting scarrier by day. disaster strickes almost everywheere. first was myammar and then it was china. then it was indonesian suffering after the mud flood incident. the after shock was even scarier. Those children queing up for rice. shortage of food, houses and other basic needs. it just sadden more.. is the world comming to its ends?
lets us help them, lets donate and maybe donate some food.

my mum is realli sick. Its soo rare she get fever. for the past 15 years she have never felT soo ill. then here i am soo busy with rockmaster, argh. luckily its vesak day. time for my mum to realli rest. house chores. guess what its my first time cooking without any assistant. its juz some simple meals. well, luckily i recalled what ive seen her doin. the dishes was eat-able. haha.
this make reflect futher, why am i soo unprepared in such situation. im a women, and freakin dosent know how to cook other simple dishes. in my perspective, u cant run away being a women. being ablt to the the house chores and being able to cook might and shld be a basic requirement that a women shld be equipt with. well, yeah new generation evolve. new set of thinking. yah. but can we be a women of flexibility? juz dont neglect the basic equipments.
and tat ayuni u need to learn to be a real women. mayb im still stuck to this conservative thinking. ouh well, my mind can go thinking soo much. stoppp! alrite!soory for that.

ouh yah. yesterday night something juz make smile and think something again. An act of kindness can make soo many smiles. well, if u think i did something good. haha. wrong.well, here goes. the lrt was very cramp. pretty much standing and trying on our balancing. haha. it was this lady giving seats to this indian women with a baby. Its soo rare to see such an act of kindness. and yes. this is reality check. its rare. and then we go blaming to those group of pple. And sometimes, there goes racist argument and assumption. and there goes the word "hate".
do we ever think maybe its the individuality? why cant we start blaming on ourselve first and then the others. not otherwise." why am i wrong?" ... "I" ,yes, start blaming to ourselve first. maybe thats where we learn. then look at the situation, blame how it went wrong, and then others. that way we dont put wrong judgemnt. ARRRGH! SHIT! im crapping again.

i think i better stop now. this seems to be a very looong entry.