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Saturday, December 09, 2006 Dear me, im writing this entry juz for u... i juz feel like expressing this to u. im neither angry nor sad by ur action... but what my real feeling were dissapointment and grateful. im dissapointed with ur actions.. in putting me with sooo much dreams and soo much hopes. thinking of which the waiting u told me to do.. somehow i felt stupid on why i waited for u.. those guys whom i turned them down. To those guys whom i didnt say they are handsome and having ur image in my mind.I am even more dissapointed on how ur heart keep changing. how u blame it to nature but not urself. The little effort u put into me... The many effort i put into u... the believe i had into u... luckily for me i didnt put much trust. Im lucky... i was expecting u to be tat special someone that i have always dream on.. mayb somehow reality only starts at pri 6 and stops at sec 1. You were my first introduction of love to my life... although during that time our defination of love its not the real defination to it.. but wat i know its a defination meant for us... im very grateful for that small moment in my life knowing u and feel the love from u.. how i waited for ur call.. how we walk to school. how u smile. how we fought.. and those eyes... maybe they were just memories... a photo album meant to be lock in our heart and never be reopenes and replayed. its a lock without a key. im very grateful with that moment god have given me... .its supposed to end an with a full stop but not a ( , ). our tale will end and will never continue to tell its tale. im accepting it and i am grateful with it. my dream guy is somehow who really appreciate me in many ways... the words are pure trust and IMPORTANTLY, the full effort put into wanting my heart im juz happy we werent meant to be together... coz my dream to tat guy was not ur kind of personalties... i force that plot into u... im soory abt tat.. maybe it was only me wanting into it... and it wasent u wanting into it.. im grateful that i filled that spot with a pencil or else its gonna be hard to erase it... thanks for the learning point u gave me! many thanks to u.. luckily we havent been into a relationship.. n im very grateful to tat... well a few wishes to u... hope u will keep her.. stick it to ur heart.. try not blamming it to nature.. coz wat i truely believe that we lives in a world of choices ... sometime u make the right and wrong choices in life.. if its gd then its gd.. if its bad... defitnetly u feel resentful and sadness.. but do think positively.. its the wrong choice which u experienced it and make u to be more mature. :) this gonna be the last communication i will make to u... coz i want to see u as the image of tat boy ive seen during primary school... i juz want to see that boy again.. kept it into my heart as that image. let it be that image and notyn more. :) Primary 6/5 haha... tats y my email was ayuni65@hotmail.com |
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